Update

Well we immediatly tried again. We did the shots and the bloodwork and the ultrasounds. Well you all know I'm not pregnant so obviously it didn't work. I went in to get an ultrasound and the tech said she wanted the Dr to speak to me. The Dr said that the new dosage of the meds weren't working. My follicles were growing too fast so when we lowered the dose, the follicles stopped growing all together. Basically I have too many follicles that are too large with one dosage and if we lower it by one step it doesn't work. The only thing that we could do it IVF since they would take out all my mature follicles and decide how many to put back in. Well that costs roughly $13-15K and I don't even think I could emotionally handle having to go through all that. When the dr told me this she saw me beginning to tear up and she asked if I needed to be alone. She was very supportive, but I had to get out of there as soon as possible. As soon as I walked out the door of the dr's office I burst into tears. It was over. We had been trying for so long and my body had been through so much, but in the end it was all in vain.

So now we are just letting things be. We aren't going to stop trying, but we aren't very hopeful that children are in our future. I decided that losing some weight may help. So far I've lost 20 lbs, but no ovulation yet. All of my friends have children or are pregnant or have children AND are pregnant. The hardest part has been going to church. When I imagine our family, I always imagined going to church and sitting with my joey and I kids. I always wanted to have my little canvas bag with books, crayons and crackers for church. I'm not sure if that is ever going to happen. I keep getting told to adopt. Well adoption is roughly $20-40K+, and it is higher if you want to adopt an infant. Basically that is where we are in the baby situation. Maybe one day I will be pleasantly surprised. Now on to better things....

We are all safe and sound after hurricane Ike. We were without power for only 5 days though we didnt have water or sewer until 5 day later.

I am hoping to have better blogs now. The holidays are coming which always makes me happy! :)

Thank you to everyone who has supported and loved us.