The results

So I went in the following day to check on the follicles. The largest one was now 18mm, but the there was also 6 others that were large enough to have eggs in them and then another 20 that were under 10 mm and probably just full of hormones. The problem was that with that many large follicles, there was a chance of multiples... too many multiples. The nurse asked me how I felt about "reduction" and I immediatly said NO! For those of you who don;t know, reduction is like selective abortion. If I became pregnant with 4-6 fetuses, they would abort one to three so that I wouldn't have too many. That was not even an option and I wanted to make that very clear. Well she said that if my blood test showed too many eggs than they may want to cancel the whole cycle since I wouldnt consider reduction. So Joey and I waited the whole day to see what the next step was. It was so hard waiting. I got the call that afternoon that they decided to trigger early. The bloodwork looked good and they wanted me to ovulate before too many got too big. We were so excited! I triggered that night and I ovulated about 36 hours later! So the next thing was just to wait to test.

Two weeks of waiting. We were so sure that it worked. The doctor was so sure that it worked! Joey had all these plans for Mother's Day. Needless to say we were already planning for a new addition to our family. Well I went in thursday morning for bloodwork and got the results at 2pm that afternoon. It was negative and i immediatly burst into tears. Joey and I talked and I just wanted to take a break. It has been so hard going through all of this. Tests and shots and more tests. My veins now have scar tissue from all thebloodwork and we are constantly getting our hopes up. I want a child more than anything, but I just didn't want to go through all this again. The nurse called back and she offered to help with the cost of some of the medicine. Joey thought this was just a sign that we needed to try again. So we are going to try one last time.

So now we are just waiting. Maybe we will get good news soon.

Keep praying for us, please!!!

Exciting news

Well my mom started giving me my three shots. Im still take the 225 iu of the Follistim, but now we have added the other two. I went in for my second u/s on Monday and it looked good. I have 6 follicles on both sides ranging from 6-11mm. We want them to end up being 20-22mm before we induce ovulation. So we continued the injections and today I went in for another u/s and then we got a little shock. I now have 11 folicles on my right side and 7 on my left... count it... that is 18! Well most of them are under 10mm so they may just be insignificant, but I actually have one that is 16mm! That is almost the size we want! WOO-HOO! I have to go back tomorrow morning to keep on eye on the larger cysts. I may get to trigger sooner than I thought!

WOO-HOO!!!

Shots shots and more shots...

Ok so I started my Follistim last thursday. I went in that morning for an ultrasound (u/s) and bloodwork (b/w) and everything looked good. No cysts and my lining was good. My mom has been sick so she wouldn't be able to give me my shots so I had a friend do it. An AWSOME friend who actually came over just to give me a shot. Friday she was out of town and my mom was still sick so I decided to do it myself. It took a little time for me to get the nerve to do it, but I did. I gave myself 225 iu of Follistim and it was honestly the hardest thing I ever had to do, BUT I felt so good that I did it. I actually did it on Saturday too! Sunday came and I decided I could keep doing it. I told Melissa that I would be able to and so she didn't have to... until Tuesday. Tuesday I will be doing 3 shots a a time and I KNOW I won't be able to do it. Baby steps... baby steps!

So tomorrow morning I go in for my next u/s and b/w. THey have to see if I have any follicles growing and what size they are. They also have to check my estrogen and other hormones. This is what they will tell me if I need to change my dosage or keep it the same.

We're keeping strong!