See how cute she was for dinner? She even had little shoes on!
Monday was going to be a great day too! I was planning on going out with some friends of mine for a girl's day out! We were going to go to lunch and a movie. My mom wanted to watch Evelyn so it all worked out!
We went to lunch and it felt good to just get out of the house and to be able to just eat lunch and not have to worry about Evelyn. We had just bought our tickets for the movie when my mom called. She said the A/C wasn't working. It was 88 in the house and Evelyn was getting too hot! We just had a new unit put in less than a month ago! Well since I was riding with three other people I was stuck, but my mom said she would take Evelyn to her house and I could just pick her up later. We saw Funny People which we assumed was a comedy so we thought it would last abot and hour and a half. My mom called me again and the baby was crying. My mom said she wouldn't take her bottle. She was just letting it run down her face and she wouldn't stop crying. It was awful! I couldn't get to my daughter and she was upset! Needless to say I couldn't enjoy the movie which was over 2 hours by the way! We ended up leaving before it was over. We had to get back! Traffic was terrible and it took so long to get home that Joey beat us home and he picked up the baby. The house was so hot and when he brought the baby home she was so worn out from crying all day. Joey tried to feed her and again she wouldn't eat. By then I was so overwhelmed I began to cry a little. Then joey realized why Evelyn was crying. The nipple on the bottle was a fast flow nipple. It was too much for her and she was choking on it. Then I burst into tears because I let it happen. It was an awful night! I felt so guilty! It was an honest mistake and there was no real harm done, but just felt like a terrible mother! I couldn't believe how upset I was.
Then yesterday I was trying to get to my mom's house because she was going to Evelyn's appointment with me. I had to turn around to get her shot record and the car died 6 times when I tried to leave the second time. Of course this was infront of about 5 landscape workers at my neighbor's house! Then the baby gets her shots! Then when she starts to get sick in the afternoon I was at my mom's and didn't have the baby Tylenol which doesn't sound like a big deal but Evelyn had a fever and she was in pain and screaming! What made it worse is that my mom put the Tylenol in the diaperbag and I took it out without paying attention. My mom had to run the store to get more. Then I had to be back at home for when the A/C guy came by, but since the baby was so upset I stayed at my mom's and she waited at my house for him. Of course the guy was 2 HOURS late! By the time my mom got back to her house she was in a lot of pain and the baby was worn out and I was getting a migraine!
See why I never want to leave the house again!?
I knew I would love Evelyn the moment I saw her, but I was not prepared for how much I 
wanted to make things perfect for her. I especially was not prepared for how awful I would feel when things weren't perfect. Based on all the stories I have heard from friends and family, mixing up the bottle nipple is NOTHING! I was shocked by some of the mistakes that were made, but all their children are alright. My mom keeps telling me that you just have to learn as you go along and realize that things won't always be perfect. Now my goal is to just relax and let the mistakes happen. Each mistake is just another lesson I am learning. I wonder if I can loosen up and really do that!
wanted to make things perfect for her. I especially was not prepared for how awful I would feel when things weren't perfect. Based on all the stories I have heard from friends and family, mixing up the bottle nipple is NOTHING! I was shocked by some of the mistakes that were made, but all their children are alright. My mom keeps telling me that you just have to learn as you go along and realize that things won't always be perfect. Now my goal is to just relax and let the mistakes happen. Each mistake is just another lesson I am learning. I wonder if I can loosen up and really do that!
5 comments:
I have to say that is the most beautiful baby (besides Sadie of course). She is a doll! Anyway, I know you feel bad, but maybe knowing that stuff happens to everyone will make you feel better. I did that same thing to Elijah. He wouldn't take a bottle, but was screaming. I burped him, changed diaper, medicated (thought it was his teeth), did everything. Then I tried the bottle, trying to see if it was just too hot. No hole in the nipple!! I've have SO MANY of these stories so if you need to feel better about yourself just call me! BTW next time she gets shots give her a dose of Tylenol about 30 mins before she gets them and your day will go so much better. Hope to see you soon!
It is a learning experience...I was overwhelmed and crying at 2 in the morning so Jahno told me he would feed her and for me to go back to bed. She just kept crying so I got up to find out Jahno had feed Maddie about 6 oz! (She was only 4 days old) So he felt bad and I felt bed because he didn't know and I "slacked off". And I did the nipple thing several times. I had to get a ziplock bags and separate all the nipples. Things will get better and easier but trying to make everything perfect will only make you sick, trust me! Call if you need anything!!!
Ditto to what these ladies said! :)
Everything will be alright Courtney, it seems like everything is going great when a baby first comes home and you feel like this will be fine and you have everything under control but as they get a little older your nerves will get more and more frazzled. The first year you have to learn to roll with the punches and know that is a trial and error with a baby. I still made mistakes with Natalie even though I thought I knew what to do after having Olivia. If you ever need anything just give a call. Miss you bunches
Awww ... poor dear! You are doing a FABULOUS job Court! She is gorgeous & she is looking more and more like you. Mistakes will happen, accidents will happen, hell ... that's what life is all about. Think how boring it would be with everything being perfect all the time! You do need to relax a little bit. You can't be prepared for everything ... just take a deep breath ... and remember ~ YOU'RE A MOMMY!!! =O)
<3 Jamie
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